Reality

"Clear your head"-he whispears while she was getting dressed..
"I never meant it you know" he was smiling , just like a predator when he finally got what he wanted.
"I never meant to break your heart , love,I just never thought you had one"
She wasn't even gazing at his words but that one word made her  lungs stop breathing,and her heart stopped beating for a second .From his voice the word sounds different..her brain couldn't percept the stimuli in order to understand the message..It was just one word..that maybe didn't mean a thing. just like any other words he whispeared to her ear that made her melt.
It was his voice..his tone .. the dazzling vocals that felt like the most bitter-sweet symphony.
She knew..it was time to leave, it became too real this time.And reality wasn't her thing.

Maps that lead to nowhere

Today ..was  just another day .ordinary in other words..
Ordinary..what a word..fancy I  might consider..
Empty..with my bare fingers pressing the letters on my laptop..
As if they could feel my empty thoughts..
What a shame they are not as bare as they appeared to be..
I thought that I was going to finish my post by the time the smoke from my cigarette would fade..
But the truth is ..I kept starring at the empty page...without a vague idea of how was I going to describe my feelings this time..
I feel lost in a world, where  the letters keep running in a peristaltic manner and I can't manage to catch them..and to put them in the right order
I can't put the map together..not this time..I can't  seem to find the X that marks the spot..not this time..I keep moving but without a destination..without a familiar face to rely on..
I kept wondering ...how could I believed you?
Words are just words without a meaning ..And I know you tried to keep them tight in your arms but they still managed to run away.
You needn't have promised me the moon and the stars because during the day they tend to hide from the crystal blue sky and all you have left is nothing.
My only regret was believing in you ,but i won't make the same mistake twice.

Overrated

Overrated...everything is overrated.. words, smiles and even actions..
There's nothing fair.. not even tears are fair anymore.
Is it wrong to feel lost in a moment you thought you had everything?
Happiness is lethal...
I have never been  good with lies..
I have never been good at dealing with them..
They call it naivety and maybe innocence...but is it so wrong to trust?
Is it so wrong to believe in honesty?
One thing  is certain...autumn dictates my destiny..
A skinny love will never last..maybe for a moment...lost 
Your love is already wasted...

Au revoir

Is it the thrill?
The anger?
A smile that makes you melt faster than a popsicle on a hot  summer day..
Fairytales don't always have a  happy ending, do they?
Tell me, is there something to gain from  this story?
A recycled heart and a broken smile  ..and nothing more..
She finally understood, there was nothing left of this story....not even the good parts, they have all fade away , carried away by the wind maybe to another now..maybe in ten years' time they'll meet again at their old place, maybe they won't even recognise eachother   or maybe they'll be brought to life again but trust me ,that would be unlikely..
For now she should just pack her things and go, but the coffin of memories shall remain behind , burried  in a tight place, a small place , forgotten because she'll want to return whenever she's afraid of the dark .But not this time ,she can't bring flowers to the grave ,not until she's ready to come back ..The only thing she needs is her red lipstick to conquer the world.The door slams.
It's time to go now ,she doesn't want to miss the plane again.
There's no coming back.

Tell me

Tell me,
What makes you so special?.
Is it your long curly brown hair?
or your ocean-like eyes?.
or maybe your perfectly curved lips?
is it the smell cinnamon that is imprinted on your skin?
or the air of mystery that you leave behind everytime you pass him by?

Is it the hunger?The high?The past?The nostalgia?The crave for a body to possess?
 A dose of ecstasy  whenever you desire to fly..
.Just like a drug-addict you keep on asking for more ...
Forever more...

question?

Too late

The mirror shows you someone..someone that you used to know...a beauty that in the moonlight overthrows you..a reminiscence of a slander of someone familiar in a way or another..
Is it someone you used to know from another life or another now?
Your questions remained unanswered
You used to runaway from everything that scared you...You used to  blame the destiny and curse the faith that wouldn't leave your sight when he was gone..You hoped in your twisted mind that maybe he'll return..
"How  foolish of you!"whispered your own reflection , "he did come back , but you don't need him anymore".It's too late...

Much more

One day you wake up and everything is gone..
The ache, the pain ,the grief are no longer there
you wake up with the thought that everything is crystal clear
Everything made sense and everything happend for a reason
The reason I don't know today maybe someday
But one thing is for  sure ,you deserve better
Not better but the best
you deserve someone to cherish  and to believe in you
You deserve to be  more than just the other woman
You have more than cherry lips and  flawless skin
And I know it was hard to undress the tattoed kisses and marks that were printted on it
But you need to understand that sometimes things get out of fashion
You have more than just a pair of green eyes because they only reminded him of the dazzling seas
but he couldn't see the chaoes that was behind those stunning lashes..a hurricane that he was unable to see
I know you will be alright .