Games

My thoughts are so loud that I can hear them screaming..
Every time I close my eyes I see you standing there motionless
With a sharp look that cuts my veins  in tiny pieces
For the first time i can't understand your eyes..
For the first time I see you blank on the inside .. confused in a sea of ice without any way out..
I see you've changed..
There are so many things that I could tell you but my lips are frozen because of your coldness.
Destiny has a way of turning you back...but what if is not for real?
What if you're just another lesson that i need to understand?
Is the high worth the pain?
How come you can play with fire when you love the ice?
I'm done playing games and scenes inside my mind.

Fear

A deep sensation  that everything is  going its way.
A feedback from the velvet  clouds that you are not alone in this masquerade..
Fear doesn't have a proper definition....
Something that wrapes  its wings over you and can't run away, you can't hide.
A prediction of an unknown slender that can't be unbroken.
A deep saddens that sings the song of the stars..A song that keeps hunting you for decades...
But you must not let it near you ..
You must fight until its gone
You control your emotions not otherwise.

Drowning

How come everyone sees perfection in your life?
How come everyone wishes they were you, when you see your life drowning before your eyes?
They all come at once...as if they are trying to tie you and all you can do is stand still.
One by one the problems seem to obscure your mind ..I have always been living in fear that one day everything was going to fall apart and the day has come..
In a second everything you ever wished for is being taken from you .
But how can you escape , when there is no way out?
How can you see the light when it's clearly not there?
How come no one hears you screaming?
 No candles ...no matches ....no hope.

Maybe you'll get to love the dark more than the light .. who knows

Monsters

It travels for days , weeks ,years ..
Just to meet you.
a disgraceful person , a cold-hearted , a weak soul, a slender that fade away with the wind
You stand there so brave and expect it to chase everything away.
You idle in time for eternity , you stand still as the wind is blowing the leaves around you , gazing at the light that seems too far away.
You look around but there's no one here .Nothing that could remaind you of who you used to be.
How would it feel not to be able to remember that dark days that brought you here.?
 You are just a traveler without a destination...with nothing to gain but everything to lose .
We count the stars but to what end?
We drive to places not to see something new but to remember the moments that vanished with the wind.

Pages

There are pages that should remain empty , not because of the words that don't seem to find their place in the row but because of a virtue.You will remember something , a touch, a smell but you won't remember her..They will feel like a shadow from the past but you won't remember what they meant.
Another her will fill the blanks but without realizing you will flutter forever in a vivid emptiness.The crystal from her eyes will vanish because you failed to remember her.Sometimes love is the only thing we have in common and over the years we find out that that's not enough.


When it comes to me, nothing's ever enough....

Have you ever?

Have you ever..
felt the urge to cry your heart out but not realizing the real reason..
felt lost in a sea of stars and not being able to jump because it was too  high.
You can't fly with the wind because you're too scared to fall.
You feel like a slave behind the door of your own soul.
Screaming  in a deaf echo..
A pathetic sorrow for memories that are coverd with silver drops of tears..
 You can't travel back because you know you won't find anything new there.
There are only spiders and dust and a one way road.

Again..

Painting the sky with her velvet wings..
Obscuring the blue that is different today..
Her eyes were different today..
Her dreams were different today..
Blaming the ghosts that visit her every night...
She wished they were like him..
The clouds were too  heavy for her to carry..
The angels were not there yet.
She felt confused and lonely
She was just human...
Empty ..
Watching the stars that greeted her pain..
She saw him..
Again..for the last time
Or maybe for the first time for real..

A mixture

A mixture ..regret , happiness ,loneliness ,betrayal , fire , a cigarette ,infinity.
How can we change something when there is nothing left to change?
There comes a moment when words fail to appear..when there is nothing you can say because
 the smoke is big enough to burn every feeling you once had.
Freedom-
there 's nothing but blood and maybe  ashes.
You feel it burning in your veins but last year's memories keep you hoping for infity.
.Naivity is just a matter of age .But is it?
Don't confess in vain  something that no one should know.
Don't let them bring their dust to poisson your soul.
ego ,loneliness ..they complete each other..
The silence is too loud.
Shake , lift  your eyes and see the darkeness that seems to drown you.
A blank world.
Misunderstood words that fake the light.
The smell of flesh and blood is everywhere you look .
TEARS AND BLACK MUST MEAN SOMETHING.
Don't look away.